Over seventeen years ago I was told “You are pregnant”, my shock quickly turned into disbelief. I didn’t know what to say or do at that point. However, God had an angel sitting right in the room.
My angel at the time looked at me and said “Honey, keep your baby because I wish I did. My baby would be nineteen years old if I didn’t have an abortion”. After exchanging words of encouragement, I knew that I couldn’t live with the type of regret and pain this woman lived with. Whenever I think about that memory I say a prayer for the woman because she hasn’t recovered from her decision.
I thank God that he spared me from that pain. During my devastation, I sat in my bathroom and cried my eyes out. The Holy Spirit said “Roman 8:28”, at the time I wasn’t fluent in the word of God so I had to question what I heard. Psalms and Proverbs were my main scriptures, can someone say “But God”? The Lord was intervening in my situation and letting me know even this child will work together for my good.
The journey hasn’t been easy and I’ve dealt with a lot of ups and downs through the years. However, I know without a doubt that God is with me and he’ll make sense of it all one day. I’ve been judged, ridiculed, talked about and mocked by many but the race is not given to the swift nor the battle to the strong but to them that endure. I am still enduring; having completed a Bachelor’s of Science degree in Criminal justice and planning to further my education before the year is out. I have been employed with HRA for twelve years with a pension. I can’t complain much because the Lord is guiding my footsteps. He is indeed my Ebenezer, “so far the Lord has helped us” I don’t doubt the plans he has for me and my children. One day all this pain is going to be worth it.
I want to encourage someone reading this blog to hold on. Whatever the Lord is saying to you believe him and listen. God timing is perfect. At any given moment God can turn your situation around. Wake up every day expecting your situation to get better. Wake up speaking that today is the day I’m going to receive whatever I’ve been praying for. God is love and he loves you, don’t ever doubt. Even when the pressures of life take a toll on you trust the plans of God and lean on him. God is able to do all things but fail.
I believe that greater is ahead for each and every person that is reading this blog. I don’t want to play anyone’s judge however believe that having a child will work together for your good. Don’t let abortion be your first answer but pray and talk to God before you make any rash decisions that you may regret in the future. Children often serve as excellent motivation so take your pregnancy as that push God is trying to give you.
